32 weeks

Well we have made it to 32 weeks.  The last three weeks have been not so fun.  I can't stand not being able to do things.  Ward members come over and sit with me to "babysit" I mean, visit with me and keep me company throughout the day.  They come in shifts and help watch Audri. I have now as of yesterday been into labor and delivery 4 times to slow my labor.  I say slow, because all the meds they have given me to STOP labor, haven't worked.  But it slows the contractions at least.  Last night I went in throwing up and having contractions every 2 mins.  it was miserable.  Everytime they put meds in my IV, I start freaking out.  I start getting anxiety and it makes my head and legs feel really weird for a while and I have a freak out moment.  Poor Ashton.  Last night I finally told them no more meds, and I was going home, I was so done trying.  So they sent me home on strict bedrest instead of moderate.  Boo.  I hate just laying around, at least before I could go on drives and walk around.  Fall is my favorite season and I feel like I'm missing it.

Baby is still doing great, she's got a great heart beat and she is very healthy so far.  I miss playing with my girls though.  Poor audri just has to watch pbs show after pbs show.  She is so much fun.  I love love her.  Aspen has been a huge helper and I love her sweet little helpful spirit.

Ashton has been so sweet.  He works long hard hours and comes home and takes care of me and the girls.  I am so thankful for him.  I love him so much.

My mom went in for surgery on Monday for a hysterectomy poor lady. She is a trooper and healing very well.  She felt bad going to get surgery while I'm on bedrest, but I wanted her to take care of herself, so I encouraged she go get it done.   And she's already feeling better.

Not being able to do my photoshoots this month has really made me so sad.  I miss shooting, and I miss my fall shoots.  I don't want to be a cry baby, but this has been tough.  But it will be worth it. Hopefully I can keep her cooking a few more weeks so she can be healthy and well.